i have come to conclude that i am allergic to working at wee hours. this is the second week in a row that i am feeling all sick! if only i could change my nose! the mucus won't stop drooling, and the sneezing...let's not get there!
i am not sure if i am being a hypocrite. i have a friend, who i love to hate so much! he is bisexual, already attached with a boyfriend for about 2 years or so, and everybody noes that me, him (let's just call him "Penis") and another girl (let's call her "Cunt") are very close. Unmistakingly close. No i am not jealous that he has a boyfriend. Penis claims that we are his best friends and so does Cunt. But for me, they are just friends cause i already have my bestest friends. what is bothering me is that, i can't tolerate Penis lying to Cunt that he is straight and that he always refer to his boyfriend (we shall call him 'X') as Lynn. I mean, if you regard each other as best friends, there shouldn't be any secrets right? Well, if he can tell me that he is bisexual i don't see why he can't tell Cunt. Maybe he is not ready? Fair enough. I did ask him once when he is going to clear the air with Cunt, and he said soon. SOON? that was like 3 months ago.
I just can't bear to see Cunt been led on. I shall press Penis to come clean with Cunt. I mean, come on...we are all friends, and the beauty of being friends is that you can be yourself and love yourself! not somebody else. I feel a competition going on between me and Penis. I have a feeling that he is always trying to out do me in everything that i do. He knows that i have a crush on Y, and he always seem to be in close proximity of Y. when i am discussing work with Y, he would just interrupt. and when i lunch together with Y, he will also be there and the limelight falls on him. it seems that everything in this world is bouat him! he is making me jealous. And sometimes, when we club and when i dance with Y, he would just barge in. i am the kind who does not like to quarrel unnncessarily, and i just give in.
The other day, the five of us went to some middle eastern joint and we sat there till 3 am talking about ghost stories. of course i was scared and wished that someone would send me home. And there he was, acting OTT saying that he was scared, and he demanded a new acquaintance, Z, to ride him home. Z was reluctant and said that he does not have an extra helmet which i did. Of course, being the stupid me, i told Z that i have an extra helmet if he needs to. Penis eavesdropped us and excitedly exclaimed "yeay...ada orang hantar aku" and not only that...he continued..."Aku tak kisa Z, kau mesti antar sampai depan rumah" Depan rumah???? Melampau kan!!!!!!!!!!!!! GERAMNYA AKU!!! i should have just kept quiet.
And just today, Penis is in the afternoon shift, and he messaged me that he needed to borrow my converse to go clubbing later. Everybody knows that we club together. But tonight? whereas i am doing my night shift. i really do not know what he is up to la. of course, i did borrow him my shoes.
There was this time as well, during our DND whist we were at topshop i think, and we were discussing what we wanted to wear. no...we were at G2000. and i was about to tell him what i wanted to wear and as usual he barge in.."eh, i am going to wear...bla...bla...bla...bla" and he had the same idea that i wanted! i told him that that is what i wanna wear as well. and he look visibly upset and said that i tried to copy him. i gave in to him and wear somthing else. he did not mention about any victorian hat, and when i told him i might use it, he said he had that in mind as well!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!! i just wish i was holding a gun!
so you see, i am not sure what stunt Penis is trying to pull. i am just going to distant myself from him now. We need to talk!