the past few days, i have been in a bad shape. still not talking to mum after the $150 incident and it has been 7 days since she last mentioned it. i have been sneezing non stop, and now my throat is all itched up. work has been crazy with a capital C! i have been working overtime and i have been pressed by my bosses to continue doing the training. just like handphones, my body needs some rest too. you can't expect me to work 10 hours a day and still smile about it. you must be an idiot thinking i could!
i wished i could just go up to her and say sorry, but it isn't my fault. she started it and brought the subject up. in my mind, i think that oh well...eventually we will speak to each other much sooner. 7 days has past and well there are progression alittle but definitely there is. let just see how much longer it will take. i did not even wish her a happy mother's day. i know i am bad, but the 2nd sunday in the month of may is not the only time i should show her my love. this mother's day thing is over rated. just like st valentine's day, everyday is a day i should show love and appreciation, not only on feb 14.
i have been thinking alot the past days, thinking about how i have been and how i treated my family. my dad and me, we are great. just that with my mum things go berserk. my bro and his sons are great as well, just that sometimes i do not understand my sister in law. i do not understand how sometimes they can quarrel right infront of me and not feeling sorry at all. i don't know how but they manage to bring my nephews up despite flaws in the upbringing.but who i am to say that they are not perfect. is it that difficult to give in to your kids? they are still small and craving for attention. is it that hard to acknowledge them? like everyone else, they need acknowledgement to know that they matter to someone. i am not saying solely about my brother, just that in general, asians upbringing are like that. we shall see how is it when it's my turn, but then again, kids are lil devil. i might not want to have one.
i am a very practical person. i don't like i say, i like i say it too. guess that is what i am, a very upfront straight to the point kinda person. i do not like hypocrism. there are just so many going on. they are all so sweet right at your face, but as soon as you turn away they turn nasty and bitchy about you. just like the blogging world.
before i proceed, maybe i should have a disclaimer to cover my ass
*DISCLAIMER* what i type here or think about is solely my own. No pun intended to any losers out there. if you don't like what you have read till here, please proceed to the X at the top right hand corner and click away.
.....i shall continue......
i do noe some bloggers who come to me and gossip about their other blogger friends, but when i blog hop to see that person's blog...surprise surprise, i see them hugging and smiling happily in the pictures. hypocrism at its hilt! i think the blog friendship is all bull shit. its just a fad that will die out soon. they are all so plastic. i see blogs and that they have their own gang or clan, not that i am jealous or anything, they are just wasted. in the end, these friends will not be there when you need them, will not be there to pat your shoulders when you cry at night lonely, will not even be there by your side in your grave. my point is, this is not a popularity contest. you don't get judge by having so many friends list in your blog, you get judged because of who you are.
i hate bloggers who show off their latest buys. especially matching gucci clogs, or the so indecisive-what-model-hp-to-buy-type, or those who complain about their jobs knowing that other girls oh-so-badly want that job is so ridiculous. if you noe you don't like that job, just quit. you don't need to wait till july or september to decide! just get over and done with it. bottomline is, you don't like your job so what is holding you back? sheesh...
it is really an eye opener to see all these plastic people communicate in the blog world. bunch of idiots.